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it's been looking like the end of my dA journey for about a year now, but when shit hits the fan and you're only left with smithereens of disappointments, you know it's done.

a few years ago, someone from real life asked me what deviantART was; i responded with, "home." and it was. it was the warmest home i had because i met beautiful, wonderful people who made the ugly i felt becoming me, less ugly. beautiful people who have now ripped me into absolutely miserable pieces and have had no problem leaving me behind unanimously.

but the souls i met here, the souls who somehow connected with my words, saw what i didn't even see in it and found it beautiful enough to remember, i cannot tell you how much i love you all for it. i have a folder of all the comments i ever received in the past and it makes me outright happy to know that even in a little, seemingly trivial moment, i made a difference in someone's life. it sounds cliche as hell but i don't care because it means beyond much to me.

dA is not home anymore, that isn't to say i won't find another home again. it's been polluted with people long after they had taken their leaves and i'm done being an afterthought.

i'll keep my stuff up until further notice. i just need final drafts backed up before i can permanently close this account. i don't see myself publishing for the longest time but i am still young and if anything happens or if y'all remember me, you will be the first to know.

lastly, if any of you wish to keep in contact with me, and i mean real contact, not hi hello how are ya end of conversation, after telling me who you are, here's where:
kik: yourmethamphetamine
tumblr: crimson-elevendelightpetrichor…

if you'd prefer talking anywhere else, i'll be happy to respond to notes.

thank you, dA and all four hundred and thirty three of you, from the bottom of my heart for everything, for reading, and commenting, adding my words to your favourites and various collections. thank you for putting up with me, for the features and every single kind thing any of you have ever done to and for me. believe me when i say that it has kept me going. if anyone survived being close to me, they would concur.

thank you for the bad things too, especially the hurt. someday i'll conquer it and make myself a hundred times better than i am now. and what i am now is beautiful and precious; i can't wait till i fully create myself again and again and again.

i wish you all so, so well. i hope all of you find what you're looking for and stay/become beautiful. thank you again. :heart::heart:

-- Orooj.

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unagihime Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2014
I'd like to thank you for featuring my poem, "the blessing of the cosmos"! It means so much that you did that. Although dA is not your home anymore, I hope you find another one soon. <3
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slipcast-chrysalism Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
COME BACKEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! :(
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AyeAye12 Featured By Owner Jun 17, 2014  Student Writer
First v-espertine , now you... :/
It is sad, but as to quote Vonnegut (and sound pretentious) "so it goes". 
If change from this site is a good thing, then so be it :3
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slipcast-chrysalism Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I think if you leave a mark, make history (or a part of it), make an impact in someone's life in a way that they'll tell others, mostly good stuff but bad stuff counts too but that isn't forever because people would look down on it and condemn it so mostly good stuff, do lots of that, tell your story, write as much as you can, live, hope, breathe and love. then forever is very long. 

(I'm feeling surprisingly philosophical at the moment, which hasn't happened in a long time. Ignore me)
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MissMoriarity Featured By Owner May 19, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
I am in love with your words.
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SpiralingSpontaneity Featured By Owner May 10, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you for inspiring me <3
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Aerode Featured By Owner May 1, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you for the Favorite! :hug: How's your day?
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roylapost Featured By Owner Apr 29, 2014
Why don't I have a copy of your new ID pic ? It's sooooo cute.
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roylapost Featured By Owner Apr 24, 2014
Three-day weekend for me ... Woot wooooot. "See" you Monday.
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DogmaticKerr Featured By Owner Apr 23, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:huggle: :worship:
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