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the world is in the palm
of my hand when I
wake up next
to your cream-white skin
and bones - they’re
both the same color now
and I don’t know
whether to be proud or
devastated
that in spite of the past
biting and writhing its
limping way back to you,
you’re still in my bed,
breathing and more
and though you could be smiling
you’re still holding your
stomach, because
it’s still there.


you’re still here.


the sky maps itself in the irises
of your muddy eyes when I
find you talking about
licking dreams and dust off
an acceptance letter to
Hopkins -
you told me that only
in the crevasses
of an ill-tempered blackhole’s eyes
would you find enough
patience to
end yourself without
ending the world.
but you would end me,
you did end me the day
you told me your body was
not a temple - mine or yours -
and that no purge
would be bloody
enough to make you stop
exhuming star
corpses from your very lips.


the heart of the Sandman rests
between your beaten
lungs when you breathe "no"'s
to my "the sun woke up today because you did"'s, and it
wouldn’t be enough,
why would it be enough?
moments you spend wishing
that your minute-friends would
tattoo semi-colons
on their
wrists like you have,
you forgot
that they slowed down the minute
you told them;
they breathed
and ate,
even if it was just for today.


just eat for today.


the wind in Bora-Bora blows
in your sinews, your skin
and bones are my
only refuge, even if you forget
my hand stroking yours
when you sleep.
yes, you asked me once
why the bags under my eyes
weren’t dark but
the color of the night sky
over an industrial city
and I’ll tell you
now, my love,
I’ll tell you this,
you leave blood trails down your mouth
even in your sleep;
you could let your body leave
whatever it needs in the day,
but by night you waste
away and
I find myself wishing
it was never your own fault
especially in your
head.


the world is in the palm
of my hand when I
find you curled into the nooks
of my leather jacket,
eating what I had
left over for dinner last night.
and for the briefest of moments
I can forget that you’re
tattooed with a punctuation mark
or that you’re closer to
sleep than you are
to me
or that you’re only eating
because you feel weak today,
because I could probably find
enough time in today,


to show you how many dust clouds
caused microcosms
under your eyelids in the past
hour
and how many continents
are mapped in the sole comforts
of your knife-worn arm
and how losing that isn’t
just the end of your
milky white form, my Sandman;
it’s the end of all
miracles resting inside
your crippling form.


the world is only in the palm
of my hand when I
know you’ll hold it
and it would feel more warm
than cold - more skin than
bones.
you have enough.
you do enough.
you are enough.


--

for my friend.
you might hate me for this. and i'm sorry.
you're enough and beautiful and loved.

i love you.
stay. please.

reading done here.
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slipcast-chrysalism Featured By Owner Mar 25, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I cried. 

I have gotten tears in my eyes before over books/poetry/prose but i've only cried twice (including now). Clockwork princess and now this. 

It is just so perfect! You are amazing! :heart:
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your-methamphetamine Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2014  Student Writer
:heart: i still don't know what to say. you're such a beautiful person who keeps blessing me with her honest sincerity and as if that wasn't amazing enough, you're my best friend too. so it's just one BIG fuzzy bear directed to you.
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slipcast-chrysalism Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
:tighthug: :heart:

I'm speechless too. .-.
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flummo Featured By Owner Dec 31, 2013  Student Writer
I love a great clincher and this is so powerful and haunting, my god.
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your-methamphetamine Featured By Owner Jan 1, 2014  Student Writer
you're absolutely wonderful for thinking that, I'm touched :heart: thank you!
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:iconarinadadragonspeaker:
Wow. That was just...wow. Gave me the chills. Your friend is lucky to have you.
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your-methamphetamine Featured By Owner Aug 23, 2013  Student Writer
aw, thank you, love. she cried when i showed it to her. thank you. :heart:
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kmills95 Featured By Owner Aug 21, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This is.....wow. Just wow.
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your-methamphetamine Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Student Writer
:blushes: thank you so much! :heart:
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kmills95 Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Of course! So awful and sad, but...beautiful at the same time, you know? Very powerful.
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