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this is meant to be heard: sta.sh/0ucuf9q2n29

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my body
is beautiful
wait

no

fuck

try again with more
conviction this time.

my body is beautiful;
its curves ascend more than the rugged
Alps, they
fall like contradictions from a politically
incorrect statement, my body is the
pavement of my mind's highway but these
flyovers keep
collapsing, I'm
trapped under the debris of
esteem
(not self-esteem, that requires
a mind-heart team effort)

my lips have kissed all kinds of
royalty; my hands have polished enough
crowns and sworn fealty to the right
people. my loyal legs once opened wider
for you to go deeper but I don't like
thinking about that, I don't like
talking about
you.

start over and this time,
mean it.

my body is beautiful; have you
seen how my hipbones curve like
wishbones?
(when you find me stuck between your
gravestone-teeth, will you promise to be
break me homolytically?)

have you
seen how my thighs purge out of
society's idea of perfect, how my
knees have blackened with mainstream scrapings
of a childhood too far from me to keep
waiting to come back,
no,
haven't you seen my concave belly?
haven't you seen how its crests remind you
of a siren's
home;
have you not seen how my ribs
kiss my skin with enough love to keep it
close? my body is home,

my body
is beautiful.

is this
real enough to remember?
I think I've
made enough knots to make this
barbed-wire-eulogy seem
a little less of a fallacy.
can you pick the specks of
dishonesty out of my eyes, please
and explain to me why my
body is beautiful when my
thighs keep wanting to kiss their inner
diameters?

can you please
tell me why it's okay for breakfast to
cross over into spit
and acid? can you please
tell me it's okay to feel like
you need to stop
touching yourself because if
anything else, owning myself
feels like I'm raping myself

and saying,
"I am beautiful," is about
just as easy as
fixing my aching
vocal chords;

I cannot make myself
come
to believe that this body
is beautiful.
just coming into terms with things.
I sat down for a good fifteen minutes debating whether to include the reading or not but I don't know, it's late and my better judgement has gone to shit for the day.
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BrandonLeeRitter Mar 26, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Amazing. 

People's views on the definition of beauty are as vast as their views on "truth"
but then again, you probably already knew that. The girl I once loved is probably
"not" your idea of a "model woman".

What makes the world go round and round?
What takes the truth that can't be found?
What fakes the happiness in your mind?
What hates your being and your time?
What shakes your world?
What makes more lies?
What is the world?
What is denied?

What is not the question.
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:iconyour-methamphetamine:
i agree with what you're saying here, completely. :heart:
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BrandonLeeRitter Apr 2, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:)
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DogmaticKerr Feb 15, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:worship: You should read everything, your voice is its own poetry :bow:
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:iconyour-methamphetamine:
hardly!

but you humble me. thank you <3
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:icondogmatickerr:
DogmaticKerr Feb 17, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
But it's so true! :heart: Really-really, really-truly! :faint:

And you're welcome :heart: Humble is good and looks really good on you :aww: It's also rather suiting for the rest of you... I can't imagine you being otherwise and still being so... :faint:
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shehrozeameen Dec 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
"owning myself feels like I'm raping myself"... God... damn...

Well done. I love this poem's fidelity and its dedication to the subject matter (which to me, does give a hint of teenage DSH and generally, about superficiality common place due to the implant culture), particularly with the way its literally following that stream of consciousness in pushing itself out (the "try again" portions in this poem - classic, and original; I really wasn't expecting that).

I'll probably refer this to ~PaperNation - you'll like her poems, because when I read this work of yours, it reminded me very strongly of her. To be honest with you, that's a really big deal: She's a good writer, and I like the way she presents her poems. They're good - worth reading honestly. Good stuff :)

Keep writing. and keep posting. And just on a footnote, I agree with that statement "Owning myself feels like I'm raping myself"... I'll probably write something based on that later onwards. Thanks - you're an awesome quote machine, I swear: You always have this capacity to provide really bad ass one-line-messages which have so much depth in such a compact form. :thumbsup:
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:iconyour-methamphetamine:
why didn't I see this earlier?

I'm really, really touched that you got all that from this poem. it means an awful lot to me, so thank you.
(that line is the backbone of the entire thing imo.)
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shehrozeameen Dec 24, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:) You're welcome. But this is just one aspect.

I mentioned you in one of my new deviation which I wrote. Prose - first in about... five or so months... Makes mentions to themes and titles and devices from your works which I've read.

(And it shows - its a well handled sequence)
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Sometimes you need to look through the mirror to see whats beautiful, not at it. Political and media bias have distorted the way we perceive the concept of an ideal perfection so looking at a mirror often results in a distorted view. What I'm trying to say Cass is that you were created for a reason and that reason is beautiful and that you are not defined by an image in the mirror because the elements that compose you are infinitely more brilliant than the sum of its parts.
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