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my body
is beautiful
wait

no

fuck

try again with more
conviction this time.

my body is beautiful;
its curves ascend more than the rugged
Alps, they
fall like contradictions from a politically
incorrect statement, my body is the
pavement of my mind's highway but these
flyovers keep
collapsing, I'm
trapped under the debris of
esteem
(not self-esteem, that requires
a mind-heart team effort)

my lips have kissed all kinds of
royalty; my hands have polished enough
crowns and sworn fealty to the right
people. my loyal legs once opened wider
for you to go deeper but I don't like
thinking about that, I don't like
talking about
you.

start over and this time,
mean it.

my body is beautiful; have you
seen how my hipbones curve like
wishbones?
(when you find me stuck between your
gravestone-teeth, will you promise to be
break me homolytically?)

have you
seen how my thighs purge out of
society's idea of perfect, how my
knees have blackened with mainstream scrapings
of a childhood too far from me to keep
waiting to come back,
no,
haven't you seen my concave belly?
haven't you seen how its crests remind you
of a siren's
home;
have you not seen how my ribs
kiss my skin with enough love to keep it
close? my body is home,

my body
is beautiful.

is this
real enough to remember?
I think I've
made enough knots to make this
barbed-wire-eulogy seem
a little less of a fallacy.
can you pick the specks of
dishonesty out of my eyes, please
and explain to me why my
body is beautiful when my
thighs keep wanting to kiss their inner
diameters?

can you please
tell me why it's okay for breakfast to
cross over into spit
and acid? can you please
tell me it's okay to feel like
you need to stop
touching yourself because if
anything else, owning myself
feels like I'm raping myself

and saying,
"I am beautiful," is about
just as easy as
fixing my aching
vocal chords;

I cannot make myself
come
to believe that this body
is beautiful.
just coming into terms with things.
I sat down for a good fifteen minutes debating whether to include the reading or not but I don't know, it's late and my better judgement has gone to shit for the day.
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Shinseinasenshi Featured By Owner Mar 26, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Amazing. 

People's views on the definition of beauty are as vast as their views on "truth"
but then again, you probably already knew that. The girl I once loved is probably
"not" your idea of a "model woman".

What makes the world go round and round?
What takes the truth that can't be found?
What fakes the happiness in your mind?
What hates your being and your time?
What shakes your world?
What makes more lies?
What is the world?
What is denied?

What is not the question.
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your-methamphetamine Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2014  Student Writer
i agree with what you're saying here, completely. :heart:
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Shinseinasenshi Featured By Owner Apr 2, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:)
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DogmaticKerr Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
:worship: You should read everything, your voice is its own poetry :bow:
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your-methamphetamine Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2014  Student Writer
hardly!

but you humble me. thank you <3
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DogmaticKerr Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
But it's so true! :heart: Really-really, really-truly! :faint:

And you're welcome :heart: Humble is good and looks really good on you :aww: It's also rather suiting for the rest of you... I can't imagine you being otherwise and still being so... :faint:
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shehrozeameen Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
"owning myself feels like I'm raping myself"... God... damn...

Well done. I love this poem's fidelity and its dedication to the subject matter (which to me, does give a hint of teenage DSH and generally, about superficiality common place due to the implant culture), particularly with the way its literally following that stream of consciousness in pushing itself out (the "try again" portions in this poem - classic, and original; I really wasn't expecting that).

I'll probably refer this to ~PaperNation - you'll like her poems, because when I read this work of yours, it reminded me very strongly of her. To be honest with you, that's a really big deal: She's a good writer, and I like the way she presents her poems. They're good - worth reading honestly. Good stuff :)

Keep writing. and keep posting. And just on a footnote, I agree with that statement "Owning myself feels like I'm raping myself"... I'll probably write something based on that later onwards. Thanks - you're an awesome quote machine, I swear: You always have this capacity to provide really bad ass one-line-messages which have so much depth in such a compact form. :thumbsup:
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your-methamphetamine Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2013  Student Writer
why didn't I see this earlier?

I'm really, really touched that you got all that from this poem. it means an awful lot to me, so thank you.
(that line is the backbone of the entire thing imo.)
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shehrozeameen Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
:) You're welcome. But this is just one aspect.

I mentioned you in one of my new deviation which I wrote. Prose - first in about... five or so months... Makes mentions to themes and titles and devices from your works which I've read.

(And it shows - its a well handled sequence)
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Inverted-Shadows Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Sometimes you need to look through the mirror to see whats beautiful, not at it. Political and media bias have distorted the way we perceive the concept of an ideal perfection so looking at a mirror often results in a distorted view. What I'm trying to say Cass is that you were created for a reason and that reason is beautiful and that you are not defined by an image in the mirror because the elements that compose you are infinitely more brilliant than the sum of its parts.
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your-methamphetamine Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2013  Student Writer
thank you <3 (John Green reference appreciated :heart:)
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Inverted-Shadows Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Who's John Green?
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your-methamphetamine Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2013  Student Writer
one of my favourite authors. the "greater than the sum of our parts" part was from Looking For Alaska.
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Inverted-Shadows Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
Geez Cass you're such a bookworm, I don't know though, why that turns me on. You're cute ghost girl.
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PossumFan Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Stunning. Love it.

+ fave
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your-methamphetamine Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2013  Student Writer
thank you!
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PossumFan Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
You're welcome.
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i-am-a-bridgewalker Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
wow this hit me in the gut.

so many staggering lines and stanzas I can't start listing them all.

you put words to exactitudes of emotions I've never been able to name. 

really amazing.
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your-methamphetamine Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2013  Student Writer
thank you, thank you, thank you. <3
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wordofthewillow Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013   Writer
I'm glad you kept the reading. It would never have been the same without it.
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your-methamphetamine Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013  Student Writer
I'm glad I did then ^^ thank you <3
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wordofthewillow Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013   Writer
I commend your bravery :hug:
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SpiralingSpontaneity Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
god you're amazing. you're such a huge inspiration to me, you're one of my favorite writers, and gosh i don't know what to say right now and im rambling and i'm sorry. okay. you're amazing (and beautiful, even if you can't bring yourself to believe it now). <3
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your-methamphetamine Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013  Student Writer
oh god, wow. I don't know what to say to that but you may have made my writer dreams come true just by saying and meaning that. thank you so much <3 <3 all my love.
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SpiralingSpontaneity Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
<3 <3 <3
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synth3tikitty Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013
this is so gorgeous
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your-methamphetamine Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013  Student Writer
thank you!
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littleblueraccoon Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Student Writer
Ouch, this is painfully beautiful. Fantastic work!
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your-methamphetamine Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013  Student Writer
thank you so much ^^
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ApplauseJunkie Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
You know I love you. I have nothing else but an intense longing to take your soul into my body and mend it for you.
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your-methamphetamine Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013  Student Writer
I'll have to learn to someday.
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co0kiem0nstr Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This is absolutely beautiful. I'm completely blown away.
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your-methamphetamine Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013  Student Writer
I'm honored. <3 thank you ^^
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overtsexualized Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
That was fantastic. The part where you spoke about touching yourself really got to me. This is a good poem to think about while falling asleep.
Thank you.
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your-methamphetamine Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013  Student Writer
yeah, I tried rereading that particular part but I lost my shit even worse, so this one had to stay. thank you so much <3
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Adrolyn Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
=)
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saltwaterlungs Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I have no words to describe this and I honestly sat for a good three minutes listneing to the buzz of my pseakers in my ears to try adn figure out how to word thid feeling. First off, it takes a hell of an amount of courgae to post something this personal, this real, on the Internet and let others hear your voice crack and fill with emotion and I could see the tears fall down your face. Second, this poem by itself is wonderful, but together with the recording, well, that broke my heart. You are talented, and beautiful. Keep writing.
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your-methamphetamine Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013  Student Writer
thank you, my love <3
I don't know how to tell you how much that means to me.
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Shoeborn Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Student General Artist
.....I don't think I have sufficient words to express all the ways this is....good. Let's go with good. because listening to that made me cry because of someone else, and it's hard to feel anything similar these days. thank you.
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your-methamphetamine Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013  Student Writer
I'm just. wow. thank you.
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0hgravity Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
although I'm in love with this whole body, here are the beauty marks for me:

 they 
fall like contradictions from a politically
incorrect statement, my body is the
pavement of my mind's highway but these 
flyovers keep
collapsing, I'm 
trapped under the debris of
esteem

my body is beautiful; have you
seen how my hipbones curve like
wishbones? 
(when you find me stuck between your
gravestone-teeth, will you promise to be
break me homolytically?)


can you please
tell me why it's okay for breakfast to
cross over into spit
and acid? 

and that reading. wow. was a true baring of the soul and I think it would be impossible for anyone not to be affected by it. impossible for even Sarah Kay, your long lost sister.

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your-methamphetamine Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013  Student Writer
:blushes:

is that last favourite part your favourite because of how my voice cracked?

she would've killed me by now....

:hug: I miss you. thank you so much, always.
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crystallized-skies Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
I honestly don't know what to say...I'm speechless. 
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your-methamphetamine Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013  Student Writer
<3 (I'll take it as a good thing)
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crystallized-skies Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
(It's a very good thing.)
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Loveislightblue Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
This. This is absolutely astonishing.
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your-methamphetamine Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013  Student Writer
thank you so much <3
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Loveislightblue Featured By Owner Dec 4, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Of course. I completely mean it.
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silentscreamer321 Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2013  Student General Artist
Speaking? A beginning of leaking, seeping emotion rang through, came true, as the harmony of truth, agony as memory bled through those searing lips of rhythmic blend. Watching with closed eyes, as you, my dear, bend to a horrific demise. Ohh, can't I hear your silent cries ~
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your-methamphetamine Featured By Owner Nov 28, 2013  Student Writer
ohhhh yes <3
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